Any which way.

Amy Winehouse has never been so relevant right now. Her lyrics are not only soothing but they open your eyes to what is really going on under the fake smiles and the soulless hugs. Everyone has their own journey through her music. Some find they relate to none of her songs, others find that every second one speaks to them directly. Not too sure where I stand right now, but I know I’m fuckin’ tanned so that’s all that matters.

Tomorrow is the big interview. If I get the job I’m going to have to relocate again, if I don’t get it then it’s back to good old Melbourne. Not too sure what to choose right now. Actually, that’s a lie; I know exactly what I want. I want this job and if it means temporarily parting with 4 people that I love then so be it. I’m all up in the air. I need to settle down and I think now is about the right time.

I did have plans to move in with Lez and Nat sometime during the year, but if I get this job who knows where I will be. All over Australia I guess. Won’t really be able to call anywhere home. I’ll have a place to live but it won’t be a home as I’d be there like 1 day a week. Hmm.

I think the person I’m going to miss the most is my sister, Emily. I’ve had “best friends” here and there but she was really my best friend. We’d talk about everything, share our stupid secrets, eat dinner and watch Prisoner nightly, play beer pong and she’d steal my singlets. I’d do anything for her and she’d do anything for me. Actually, it was more one sided, as she’d drive me most places BUT when I had money it wasn’t just my money, it was hers as well. And you know what, I didn’t really mind. I’d call her every day on my lunch break, actually every break I had. Man I love that bitch.

It’s going to be good to get away, clear my head for a bit. NYE was great but I was left feeling scattered and confused at the end of it all. I bled my brain out to Brigette, and her boyfriend Chris, the day after pyramid and they put it all into perspective for me. They drove 22 hours to see me for 2 days. That’s all they had to say.

In 24 hours I’ll know the results of what is to come. Here’s to hoping I can maintain this sweet, bronzed skin for a little while longer.